Let me ask you…do you ever feel afraid? Do you ever feel nervous? Do you ever get that churning sensation in the pit of your stomach when you know there’s something coming that you’re anxious about? Now think – do you ever confuse these feelings of anxiety, fear and nervousness with feelings of excitement and expectant anticipation? You know, when you think you’re terrified of something, but in reality, you’re just really excited about it because it’s new or interesting or an adventure??
This is how I feel right now! There seems to be a constant cloud in my head, filled with images of
me not being good enough
people judging me on my performance
And on top of this, is the knowledge that these next few months are going to be very full! So add the cloud to an almost overflowing bucket of ‘to-dos’ and what do you get? This poster in every room of my house!
I’m joking, of course – but that’s what it feels like sometimes. Often the overwhelming sense of ‘unknowns’ – whatever they may be – can take over and block out the view of the sun…or should I say, Son? (See what I did there? Yeh, clever…) it was only just in the last little while – and I mean that literally, as in hours – that it dawned on me…
Through Christ I can do anything…
In a very real way.
And on top of that?
He is able.
So. What does that mean for me? Well, my to-do list isn’t shrinking. However, my ‘mind cloud’ (yep, it’s a thing) can be altered to better complement my to-do list. Each of those fears, anxieties or nerves can be partnered up with a different feeling. Excitement. Anticipation. Peace. I might not feel great all the time, but if I bring each of those feelings to the feet of my Infinite Helper, He has the power to use them for good and change them so that I can be who I have been created to be.
Yes, I still have to get up in front of a class of fresh faced students next week and attempt to deliver a vocab lesson while my mentor teacher assess me – but the anxiety I feel can be cast over to the One who has the power to use me as an effective educator in their lives…even if it’s just for a moment.
Are you feeling anxious, fearful or nervous about something? Bring it to your Father and ask Him to transform it into something more useful…He will 🙂
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